A Mortal Payment

So I had this day yesterday. One of those days where a good cry seems to help. Sometime during the night of the night before, a woman I've known my whole life passed away in her sleep. She was young, it was unexpected. Her husband is still alive and they are sealed to eachother. I wasn't so much upset at her death, just sad for those loved ones left behind to live life without her. I found comfort in knowing that they are sealed and will be with her again. Then I found myself thinking about my position and how as of right now I don't have that. How even if I marry again and am sealed to that man, the father of my children won't be there in eternity if he continues on the path that he is on. I ended up crying and needing a major pep talk. I called my guardian angel. He never answers his phone, I always leave a message and then he calls me back. So I was ready to leave a message when he, out of the ordinary, answered. I was already crying but when he answered the phone, I started bawling. He knew who I was and said, "Just let it out Jenn. Cry all you need to." I then told him all my thoughts and how I was feeling. He gave me great words of advice. I told him about how I hurt for my children and how their father won't be there in the end. He said, "Think about it, Jenn. All that matters to them as far as who is there in eternity is their spouse. That's what it ultimately comes down to, that you and your spouse be together forever. They'll be OK." As I made mention of them paying the price for what their father choses to do he made a profound statement. "The price that they will pay is a mortal payment, not an eternal payment." It will only be hard in this life, eternity is going to make it worth it. I'm taking those words and applying them to my life and I'm going to teach my children to do the same. I'm happy to pay a mortal price, it's much better than eternal.

2 Nephi 25:26

"And we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we prophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins." I was reading with my friend the other night and came upon this verse. It stood out to me. It's simple yet profound. It's the truth.

The Life of My Party Returns!

She's back. After a long 9 month absence, she has returned. It's possible that the nine months she was gone went by slower than my last pregnancy. She walked into institute and I just wanted to scream. (I couldn't though, the teacher was giving the lesson) I did, however, stand up and give her a big hug. In all honesty I couldn't tell you a whole lot about the lesson, I was a little distracted. She's so amazing, I can't wait to reconnect. What a beautiful spirit she has and the light of Christ screams through her body. I'm so glad to have her back.

Time Happens

So, I was talking to my guardian angel the other day. He had called to make sure I was doing ok. I had sent him an email about a dating issue that I was having. So, as we talked on the phone and I further vented my frustrations he said, "Jenn, maybe time is just what's going to happen to you." As much as I already knew that, I needed to hear it. His words in that conversation were extremely helpful and validating. I love that he's always there for me and in tune with what I need to hear. He has always helped me, every step of this journey it seems he has made with me. I could never repay him for all he does. His last remark to me was, "Jenn, you're the greatest and don't think otherwise." I really have to concentrate on the way that I think...how I think about myself. I'll continue to try. Time happens!